RP with Jason Todd

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[A few days after the depressing text messaging Roxy had with Jason she gets a call from one of the girls she knows from work who tells her that they've been offered to dance for a private after party at the club.

"It's good money Rox, these guys are big tippers to all the girls. Not just the ones up on stage." She tells her, "C'mon it might be fun."

Fun. Sure.
It's something she could use right now, having spent the last two days in a depressive slump over the situation with Jason, so after some consideration she agrees. She loves dancing so it might help break her out of her mood and she definitely could use the cash seeing how she just had to use a good chunk of her savings to buy a new cellphone, but most of all she says yes because there's a part of her that wants to look sexy as fuck and have guys check her out just to spite Jason. He won't be there, seeing how he's not 21, but that doesn't matter. It's the vibe, that badass bitch vibe that she needs right now.
Because otherwise she's just going to sink deeper into heartbreak.

And so, on Saturday night Roxy selects an outfit from her costume closet that she knows is a "fan favorite", throws it and some heels into a bag and heads down to 'The Penthouse' strip club located in downtown Gotham.]

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[One of her hands drifts up to her neck, unconsciously rubbing at the spot where she had been choked last night as she digests the information Jason is giving her.]

Oh god.

[Her stomach clenches uncomfortably as it finally hits home that if she wasn't who she was, if she didn't have her powers or the years of training that Mr.Lynch had given her she could have been one of those women. She could have been taken next. She swears under her breath, feeling a low throb of anger at all the men who were the cause of this.]

I hope you find the other three soon.

[She sighs and sits down on his bed, trying to shake off the awful guilt and anger that wants to take hold right now. Hopefully it will turn out okay, she knows Jason isn't lying to her about his dedication to finding the others. It's a small thing but at least she knows someone is looking for them instead of just ignoring the issue or leaving them to die.]

Guess this means I'll have to find a new job...

[theotherobin]

[ He reaches out, sliding a hand over hers on her neck, moving in closer to her. He knows it's a lot to take in all at once, especially after everything that happened last night, but at least he can be here for her now. ]

We will. We'll find them. We've got... we've got ways.

[ Recognition scans across the city that he doesn't know if he should tell her about. Not the details anyway. He's already pulled her into all of this way too much.

He moves to sit down next to her, placing a hand gently on her leg. ]

I know a couple places that are safe. I can put in a good word if you want.

[gravity_grrl]

I'm glad. I'm glad you two are out there, doing something. Helping people.

[She's grateful for his touch, it soothes her and she moves closer to him. Leaning her head on his shoulder.]

That would be nice, thank you.

[She pauses, biting her lower lip.]

Urm so, are you okay with me doing that for work?

[theotherobin]

[ He's quiet for a moment, turning his face into her hair. What a weird, fucked up few days. What a relief to be able to be close to her again. He knows he was stupid in so many ways, but he felt trapped. He doesn't feel so trapped anymore.

But still, it's hard to forget how he felt that night and he knows she said it was about how she was feeling, but Jason is unsure. Insecure. The thing is, he wouldn't change his ways anyway. If he's too brutal, so be it.]

You don't think it's too much? The other day you said it was too brutal. Too much. I think you should know now that it's not gonna change. Those guys? They all deserve what's coming to them and I'm not gonna feel bad about it.

[ he doesn't want her to feel bad about it either. not because of how she feels when she's glad they got hurt, or because of what he does.

he's glad she takes his offer to help her out. he's got some good and bad rep with the places around here, but he does know the safer places, and the ones that he and Bruce can watch over more.

As for if he's okay with what she does for work, he kisses her head, then pulls back a little so he can look at her. ]

It's not up to me what you do for work, Rox. I mean... don't get me wrong, I don't totally like the idea of other guys having their hands on you, if that happens from time to time, but it's your choice. I'm not gonna be a dick about it.

[gravity_grrl]

[When he brings up her reaction the night she was shot she sighs again, struggling with how much she should tell him about some of the deeper reasons why she reacted like that.]

It felt brutal but....after what's happened to me in the span of a week it suddenly doesn't feel like that anymore. It feels...I mean...Knowing that those guys are hurting women right below me when I'm at work?...You're right. They should be dealt with harshly. They deserve it. Because that's sick and wrong.

Part of the reason I've been struggling with it is because I'm not used to having to sort through all the morality in these kinds of situations, before I came here it was all sort of done for me.

[She looks up at him after he kisses her head, smiling at him gratefully.]

I appreciate you saying that, I really do. And because it's my choice I want you to know that I don't do private dances, not because I look down on it, but because I know that I can't handle it emotionally. I only want people I know and care about to touch me.

[theotherobin]

[ That's the thing about Gotham. The more you see what goes on around you, the more you believe something drastic has to be done about it. Even more so than what even Batman does sometimes... which is why Jason takes to the streets on his own sometimes, but he doesn't make a habit of it. When it came to Roxy though, he has no regrets about what he did to those guys, and when the cops beat down on people, he has no qualms about being brutal right back.

They all get what they deserve, and it's a relief to hear her say it. ]

They do deserve it, because if they don't get what's coming to them, they'll just keep doing it, over and over again.

What do you mean it was done for you?

[ He looks at her curiously, realizing he really doesn't know all that much about her past. And now... she knows so much more about him. He'd like to know her too.

It's good to know she doesn't do private dances... like she says, not because he looks down on it either, but the thought of someone else touching her intimately... he doesn't like it. It might even make him a little jealous.]

Rox... I know I fucked up. I lied to you, I treated you like shit and I don't fucking deserve you at all, but. I care about you a whole fucking lot and I wanna be with you. I want us to be together, like an actual couple. I don't know if this is stupid or not, or too corny or whatever, but... if you want to, will you be my girlfriend?

[gravity_grrl]

[Her eyes flicker up to the ceiling for a moment, trying to pick her words carefully to describe her past and some of her secrets. It's such a weird mess but she hopes he will be open to listening to her secrets as much as she is about his.]

Remember how I told you I was on the run from the government? That's because technically for a while I was part of a government created team, it was all kids my age whose fathers had been experimented on in like the eighties. Some really fucked up stuff was done to them and they wanted to see if the next generation was better, or could do better so we were all rounded up and tested on. That's how I met my friends, we were all in the same unit and after we saw how fucked up everything was we all made a run for it.

We had help from a guy who was part of those original experiments, Mr.Lynch, he helped us get out and put us up in a big house in La Jolla where for a while we sort of tried to forget what had happened. But soon we decided to use our training to help people, Mr.Lynch would send us out on missions to save other kids like us or people who were stealing government weapons to use on regular people. That kind of shit.

[She licks her lips, her mouth suddenly feeling very dry.]

So...it's like, we were helping people but we never had to ask who the bad guy was and who wasn't. We were just told who to fight and who to save. In a weird way it was almost kind of mindless, and you'd feel so far removed from the actual morals of it. It's one of the reasons we all went our separate ways eventually, we got tired of being good little soldiers who didn't think for themselves.

[She looks down and isn't surprised to see that she's nervously wringing her hands together and forces herself to stop.]

When...when I saw first hand the outcome of what you did to those guys it shook me up, because that was never part of what we saw. It felt so close all of a sudden and it scared me to think about my own morals.

[She pauses for a long time, waiting for his reaction.]

So turns out you weren't the only one who was lying. I'm so sorry that I didn't tell you but it's such a bizarre thing to even say out loud and I didn't want to scare you away with all this weirdness and I know that...wait....

[She had been babbling out an apology but she stops and looks up at him, looks into his eyes.]

Did you just ask me to be your girlfriend?

[theotherobin]

[ Oh.

Oh wow. That's a lot to take in. Seems like they both had their secrets, their lives outside of anything they've ever talked about or done together. Jason had a feeling, of course, with the whole on the run from the government thing. That doesn't just happen for no reason, but... what they had before, it was so good, so fun... he didn't want to ruin it by digging. He didn't want to ruin it with any of this.

But that's not what any of this turned out to be. None of this is ruined, and all of this can make them stronger. He knows that now.

But it's still a lot to take in. Experiments, government created teams, kids being tested on. A team of kids using their training to help people. It all sounds so familiar to him, that it's almost fucking unbelievable that the two of them found each other somehow, when they basically did the same thing. ]

So you're telling me that you used to do this kinda stuff too. Like what I do. You were part of a team who helped people. And then like... maybe this guy tried to fuck you up and steer you a different way, but you got out.

[ He raises his eyebrows, shaking his head. It's fucking unbelievable, because it really isn't at all. He just never thought she was involved in that much of it. ]

So... you were experimented on? ...The other day with those guys. I saw the surveillance footage. You got shot, didn't you. You appeared on the scene out of nowhere and you got shot with a real bullet and then you healed up.

[ Maybe he shouldn't be laughing right now, but it's so much, and it's almost as much of a relief finding out about all of this, just as much as the whole Robin thing, that he lets out a small laugh, then presses the back of his hand against his mouth. This is crazy. ]

Yeah. Yeah, I just asked you to be my girlfriend. Is that alright? Figured we could make it official. If you want to.

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[Her hands are trying to be restless again so she lets them loose to pick at the hem of her sweater dress. She knows it's a lot of information to hear, that it sounds like something out of a fucking sci-fi movie but it's the truth and he deserves to hear it.]

Yeah, although our outfits were never as elaborate as yours is. [She gives him a tentative smile.] You look good in yours by the way...

[When he mentions her getting shot she just nods her head, not sure if she needs to go into the details of her powers just yet. He seems to be taking it okay but she really doesn't want him to suddenly call her a freak and cast her out.

At the sound of his laugh she lets herself relax a bit, looking at his expression carefully before smiling.]

Is that alright? If I want to?

[She repeats back at him with a grin and wraps her arms around his neck, swinging her legs across his and pulling herself into his lap. She kisses him, gently first and then with more pressure. When she finally breaks the kiss she's breathless and grinning.]

Of course I want to.

[theotherobin]

[ He wants to pull her hands away from her dress to keep them from their nervous thing, but he knows he wouldn't like that, so he doesn't do it to her either. Sometimes you just have to feel things out. ]

That's still... wow. Okay. So this whole Robin, vigilante thing isn't new to you either. That's... that's a fucking relief, actually.

[ he gives her a small smile when she says he looks good in his outfit. it's not really his own, but there have definitely been some improvements, and he's proud of it. ]

Thanks. I'm sure you were pretty damn hot in whatever you were wearing too, though.

[ He makes note of how she doesn't do much more than give him a nod when he brings up the other night, and the bullet wound. The way she healed. He wants her to talk to him about it, and he doesn't really understand why she wouldn't, especially after everything they've been through, especially last night.

But he's distracted enough by everything else, especially when she smiles and then quickly moves into his lap. The rest of it fades to the background, because this is what he's wanted, and there'll be time for everything else later, because she wants what he wants, and that's incredible enough as it is. His arms go around her right away, leaning into the kiss, kissing her back deeply. Fuck, he's missed this. No matter what the rest of it is, he feels good about this. ]

Yeah? Good. Cause I really want to. I was stupid enough not to before.

[gravity_grrl]

Yeah, it's eerily similar. Which is why I wasn't mad at you for not telling me that you are Robin because...like why would you? That's not something you should tell the girls you're randomly dating.

[She chuckles to herself, thinking back about what she used to wear with the other members of Gen13. Almost everyone on the team had full costumes and she was usually the one in shorts and her leather jacket.]

Aw shucks, thanks.

[She cuddles up against him, happy to be feeling his arms around her once again. She feels safe in them, and after the night she had last night she needs that.]

You're not stupid.

[theotherobin]

Makes a whole lot of fucking sense. I still would've been worried though.

[ And he probably still would have done the same, thinking they needed to part because it was the best thing to do for both of them. It was the safest, and he thought so intensely that he'd fuck it up anyway. Somehow though, she's able to reach him further than that. Able to get him to see past his insecurities, because she's so much more important than that. ]

Thanks for coming by today. Thanks for being brave enough, cause I sure as fuck wouldn't have been able to do it.

[ He hugs her tight against himself, forehead pressing against hers as she looks at him. This could have all ended so badly, but it didn't. He almost can't believe it. ]

Easier to believe when you say it.

[gravity_grrl]

[She blushes when he calls her brave, having not even considered that what she did was brave in any way. Stubborn? Of course. Impulsive? Yeah. But brave? Huhn...well maybe?]

You're welcome. I just didn't want to lose you, I'm kind of really stubborn in case you haven't noticed.

[She kisses the tip of his nose.]

You're not stupid at all darlin, you just got freaked out. It's okay.

[She snuggles herself into the crook of his neck, smiling happily.]

So....can I ask you something about being Robin? How do you get into that suit? It's pretty damn tight, do you grease yourself up or somethin'?

[theotherobin]

Stubborn, yeah. But in the best kind way?

[better than the kinda stubborn he is, he's sure of it. he's glad he wasn't stubborn today, though. yeah he knows he freaked out when she found out, but he was quick to listen to her and believe her too, and maybe that's all that really matters right now. ]

I did freak out. It's just that. I've never done this before, you know? You're the first person I ever even wanted to try with and then... I freaked. I really did. Thanks... For understanding.

[he laughs at her question, sliding his arms up her back.]

Sorry to burst your sexy bubble, but there's no greasing involved. I have a bodysuit under it that makes it all slide on easier.

Maybe I can show you sometime.

[gravity_grrl]

I'll remind you that you said that later when you are cursing my stubborn streak. Like when I won't budge on what I pick for our Halloween costumes....

[She says as she kisses his cheek. When he mentions that he's never done this before she moves so she can look at his face.]

Jason, when you say I'm the first person....do you mean with the whole you being Robin situation? Or am I your first girlfriend?

[Giggling she mock pouts]

Awww way to ruin my fantasy of you oiling up your naked body before sliding into the Robin suit. But seriously, I'd love to see you in it again one of these days.

[theotherobin]

Lucky for you I'm not real picky about Halloween costumes, so it's all you, babe.

[he gives her a crooked grin, squeezing his arms around her. and then he looks down, feeling a little shy about the whole thing, but they're on a talking streak now so it's fine, right?]

First girlfriend. Is that weird? It's not like I haven't been with girls before but it's never been anything more than just a sometimes thing.

[he never liked it like that either. he's not one to just sleep around. he's a goddamn romantic and he's always wanted this, but he's never really had a chance, what with bouncing around from place to place, living on his own on the streets. This is the first stability he's ever had. That's why he's so terrified of losing it.]

You can pick me up any other time if you want to. I'm sure you'll see me in it again soon.

[gravity_grrl]

Oh hell yeah! I'm going to make us something epic for Halloween.

[She notices how his demeanor becomes a bit more shy and she smiles, running her hand through his hair.]

No it's not weird, a little surprising because you're such a great and attractive guy but not weird. Urm, follow up question to that.....when you say you've been with girls. To what extent? Are you a virgin?

[She doesn't think he is, he's certainly shown her that he has enough confidence sexually but that doesn't always necessarily mean anything as confidence can be faked. Better to ask outright to be sure, she doesn't want there to be any mistakes now that they've become official.]

Sounds good, let's just make sure it's not in a situation where I'm getting shot or throttled okay? I'd much rather you just come visit me after work in that sexy suit on my rooftop.

haha my fault for not getting on that sexy times thread quicker, i know i know D: xD

[theotherobin]

Just nothing in a mask, or I might look suspicious.

[ Jason doesn't particularly like being put on the spot unless he decides to do it to himself. He supposes this is a little bit of both, so it's fine. Plus, it's Roxy. It's always fine with Roxy. ]

You do realize I can also be a shithead, right? But also I guess I never really stuck around long enough. Almost did that with you too.

[ But he does give a small laugh when she asks if he's a virgin. There's nothing wrong with that, of course, but he wonders if he's ever come off like one before. ]

I'm not. My life's just been real fucking all over the place. Hard to have a girlfriend when you're looking for places to sleep.

[ Did it bother him? Maybe, but he's always tried not to think about it. And in the end, wasn't it a good thing? Now he gets to be with Roxy. ]

I will definitely meet you after work in my sexy suit. It'll be a fucking relief not to have to lie to you about my busted up lips anymore... but I've really been trying not to get smashed in the mouth, cause I like kissing you even more.

Haha no worries, I figured Roxy wouldn't fully sleep with him in that thread anyways. XD

[gravity_grrl]

Oh of course not, like I'm gonna cover up that handsome face on Halloween.

[She smiles and kisses his forehead.]

Yeah but at least you're a sweet shithead.

[As he explains why he's never had a girlfriend she nods and brushes back his hair. So he's strictly been a casual encounter type of guy till now, till her, a fact that makes her stomach feel fluttery and makes her want to smile.]

Okay I didn't think you were but...you know. Always worth asking. We haven't really uh...talked about sex details yet.

[Despite the fact that they've already made out and fooled around, which means that it's good that they're talking about it now because now that he's asked her to be official, his girlfriend, she doesn't think she'll be able to resist him for much longer. Just looking at him makes her want to jump on him.]

Do you have any questions for me about that subject?

[The fact that he's been trying to not get a busted lip so he can kiss her makes her heart melt and she runs a thumb across it softly.]

Aww really? Jason....you are so sweet to me.

even with sleeping over? damn, roxy 😫 haha it's all good

[theotherobin]

Now I'm curious what you're gonna put us in.

[ Us. It feels good. Sounds good, too. ]

A sweet shithead, huh. I'll have to keep that in mind next time someone's flipping their shit out on me for being an asshole.

[ This is definitely not a conversation he ever thought he'd be having, but... maybe that's a good thing. It's good that Roxy wants to talk this stuff out with him, and actually gives a shit about what he has to say. He'd rather she ask than just assume anyway. ]

Guess we haven't no. People aren't usually into talking about the details. Not sure I've ever had anyone ask, actually.

[ Which is weird? Sad? He's not sure. He's not really sure what kinds of things people ask each other about sex.]

I don't know. I've never talked it out before. Just kinda happens. I guess... is there anything you don't like, so I don't do it?

[ He kisses her thumb, giving her a soft smile. ]

I want to be. I know I haven't been great at it, but I will be.

Haha she's trying to go slow! She'll do almost everything else to him in that thread though XD

[gravity_grrl]

I've got a couple of ideas, it depends on what kind of material I can get.

[She laughs.]

I'll get it embroidered on a pillow for you.

[The funny thing is that she isn't super used to talking about it either but she's trying to be more mature in some of her decisions, not all because come on she's 21 not 38. She's always been the type to just let it happen and go with the flow but she's been hurt so many times by doing that so this time she wants to actually open her mouth and talk about things that matter. Like sex, like protection, and boundaries.]

That makes two of us, guys don't usually wanna talk about sex with me. They just wanna do it and leave. But okay, urm. I guess I'll let you know that I'm on the pill, have been for years, so we don't have to use condoms unless you still want to.

[She blushes and tucks a strand of her hair behind her ear.]

Urm, as for things I don't like...I don't like degrading sex talk. Like...please don't ever call me a slut when we're doing stuff. I've been called that all my life and it's not sexy.
What about you? Is there anything you don't like?

[She smiles back at him.]

You've been better at it than you think, but if you can be even sweeter then I'm not going to stop you.

[theotherobin]

Material? What, like homemade?

[ The closest thing he's ever had to homemade has been Alfred's cooking. He feels kinda bad their breakfast has gotten cold, but this is more important.

Roxy is definitely being the mature one, on all accounts. Being cool with him being Robin, coming to see him despite all the shit he pulled, and wanting to talk to him about it. It's more than Jason could have managed. He's still working on the whole mature thing. ]

That's the thing. I don't wanna just do it and leave but I think everyone expects that from me. None of the girls I've been with have ever really wanted to stick around. Not that I've been with a lot of girls.

[ He gives her a small nod when she says she's on the pill and they don't have to use condoms. ]

I'm clean, just so you know. Bruce does a full medical check like every couple weeks.

[ Creepy? yeah, maybe. but Jason gets it. It's only for their safety.

As for the degrading sex talk, Jason furrows his eyebrows, shaking his head as he finds her hand, lacing her fingers. ]

Hey, I would never fucking call you that. I'd beat the shit outta anyone who ever did. I'd never call you any kinda bad names. No one deserves that, least of all you.

[ He frowns a bit, kissing her hand, then shrugs. ]

I'm cool with whatever. Or... I guess same as you. Don't like to be called degrading shit either, but I know you'd never do that.

Just want us to be together and treat each other right, and... want you to let me give you everything I can.

[gravity_grrl]

Yeah of course! I'm not getting us cheap crappy costumes.

[Roxy is a big fan of Halloween, maybe it comes from growing up rough and having one night where she could pretend to be something she wasn't. A princess, a movie star, a fairy queen from a faraway land. Instead of white trash.

When he mentions that he hasn't been with a lot of girls she tries to hide her surprise, he's just so damn good looking that it's hard to believe that women haven't always been throwing themselves at him even if only for brief encounters. And those who did must have been either really dumb or distracted by a very hard life to let him go, to not want to stick around.]

I'm also clean, I got tested before I moved to Gotham.

[She appreciates his anger towards the people who have called her bad things more than she can say, and when he kisses her hand like some kind of knight she feels her heart swell.]

Thank you, that means a lot to me.

[Leaning closer she places a soft kiss against his cheekbone, over the new bruise.]

I'll let you, so long as you let me do the same for you.

[theotherobin]

That's pretty cool. I like that.

[ Well, he'll be whatever she wants them to be. Halloween in Gotham is always either the most intense thing, or nothing at all. He hopes this year will be chill, because he wants to spend it with her and not out there chasing down some fucking scarecrow or something.

People tend to be surprised when they find out he's not some kind of player, and that's fine with him, he supposes. No one needs to know how much he tends to put his heart on the line when he really likes someone. He's never wanted girls to just throw themselves at him. He wants to be with someone. He wants more. He wants that with Roxy. ]

Am I the first person you've been with since you came to Gotham?

[ He's only asking cause he's curious, not because he's thinking anything about the people she might've been with. Though he wonders now, what kind of assholes she has been with. He remembers she was going to tell him something about her jealousy issues, but then she ended up in the hospital.]

Seriously Rox, if anyone ever gives you any shit... I'm on them.

[ he cups her face with his hands, but looks down, small smile on his face. ]

You already do.

[gravity_grrl]

It'll be great, I promise.

[She's got a bunch of ideas for what they can go as but she hasn't fully decided yet because she wanted to see if he even liked costumes, but he seems open so now she can let her imagination go wild.

When he asks her about if he's the first person she's been with in Gotham she nods, giving him a shy smile.]

Yeah you're the first. Kind of funny that I somehow managed to snag Gotham's most badass bachelor on my first try at dating here.

[She smiles back in return and leans forward to softly place kisses all over his face; his cheekbone, forehead, nose and finally his lips. Her hand moving through his hair to rest at the back of his neck.]